Changes: Good vs. Bad

Well most of you really have no clue as to who I am and are clueless as to why I blog and why I am so avid with this blog. It has been my avid dream to have my own website, business, and do good in life doing what I love to do. That is why this and Creative Ellusions has been a huge project to me after graduation. Well my love for computers has to start way before graduation and probably even began while I was in middle school. All because my father found it the only thing that brought us close and because it was something that interested me to the point that if I continued to ask questions, he'd answer and I'd make him proud. Which was why after a while I kept telling myself that I was going to go to college for a degree that had to deal with messing with computers.

Well graduation (Sunday, June 3, 2007) was coming quicker and quicker. I knew with the way I acted in High School that I probably wouldn't get a free ride to college on a scholarship for sports and good academics, all because I hardly applied myself my freshman year and had a hard time barely getting back on the good in the academics my Sophomore year. But I made the best with the $500 scholarship that I had received for College just days before my graduation ceremony. Graduation came and I was the proud that I had finally reached my goal of just graduating High School.

Well a couple days after graduating from High School, my mom had me fill out an application at a job she was working at that I just so happen to get a job offer from the day I turned 18 and 10 days later started. I started working at this place on August 1, 2007 and by August 15th I was enrolled into College and had college classes started by August 31st. Things were changing good for me. I had a full time job, was going to school part-time, still single and not letting things get in the way. That's when I meet Zac [my first fiance].

Don't get me wrong I did love Zac the whole time I was in a relationship with him. But I do have to admit that I was blind the whole time I was with him and he was using me for the money. I do have to admit though he was really supportive over me and did have a heart for me but once he realized that my dreams were coming true and that I was happy, he used that to his advantage. He got phones out of me, love, sex, everything that he could imagine. Don't get me wrong with my good choices I was trying to get him to get his life back on track and it was working to a degree. Worked all the way until we moved to Toledo together, he stopped taking my medicine and saw that he was starting to ruin me.

Mind you by this point I had quit my full-time job and was officially jobless [for an enitre month], broke, and starting to worry whether I could go back to College for a second year. I did however earn 6 college credits when I was with Zac. So when I moved back to my parents after he dumped for me trying to make my dreams come true while trying to make a life with a man that I was engaged too. I ended up getting my job back at McDonald's, and then that's when I hook up with a good friend from church, Scott.

Scott was the second guy that I got serious with since graduation. He's the second fiance that I thought was going to a good guy. Shortly after hooking up with Scott I got hired into Kroger were I had a new start at a new job that I was hoping would get me far in life. I was also starting to figure out whether I could try to get back into college. A month after hooking up, Scott and I are layin in bed and he proposes. Out of the blue he just looks at me and says, "Will you marry me?" I [dumblying] say yes. Well about a week or two after Scott proposes and its made as a more official engagement on this one as the last one I start seeing the true colors of Scott. So I break up with Scott.

Now I am single again, working part-time at Kroger, and no idea on how to get back to College. I about gave up on all my dreams and figured I'd just be a part-time cashier living at my parents working on minimum wage trying to earn my way up the damn totem pole. Well then one night Chris's mom [yes his mom] is checking out and starts talking to me. Tells me that Chris is single, that she thinks he may be interested in me and that I should give him a call. So we start talking and that's when things start getting better for me!

Chris [was] that finally brought me back to realizing who I was and what I wanted to do. He made me realize that things were gonna change if I started pushing myself to believe in myself. So that's when I told myself that if he was going to stand by me in all my decisions that he may even keep finding out that I am my own person. That's when I got a better job at Meijer's and was working on getting back into college. Then things started getting worse and then we split up for a couple months.

During our split I go from part-time to full-time at Meijer and was on the midnight shift [making some good money again]. But I was starting to hang out with someone who was gonna take me down with her if I didn't change. My family was noticing, Chris started noticing [only because about a month after we split we started talking and hanging out again], and they were gonna put a stop to it. So I dumped a friend that I thought was going to be a great friend the rest of my life only because I found out something that hurt me...the person was starting to treat the guy I loved [Chris] with the utmost disrespect and was texting him to come over when I wasn't there. Thankfully Chris didn't like her [that's gonna stop that].

We finally get to Febuary 2010 and Chris asks me to stay the night at the new house [he moved to Dundee] and that's when we hook back up. Things start getting back on track, and I'm happy. I start doing more thing that I find I like. I couldn't be anymore happier!! I apply for the Pell grant and continued to be showered by Chris's love. I get a new car, new phone, new friends, and a new lookout on life. But then things started going downhill. I hear rumors that my relationship with Chris is in the ruts, that he may leave me and I fight and think things are getting better...

June comes and we prepare for my brother's graduation. A tornado swipes through Dundee June 6, 2010 at 2:17a. F2, 130-135 mph winds, 800 yards wide and pretty much covers the whole 13.5 miles of Dundee that it could. Dundee is devistated, my brothers graduation party was rained on but a success yet we find out that they canceled graduation because of the tornado. Then he graduates and as things for me and my family get better, things for Chris and I start getting worse. I glance at his phone and finds out that he may be breaking up with me again, I start feeling distant, yet he had no idea.

Today I find out that we need to come up with gas money so we can take my car to Detroit so that Chris can get to court. So he decides that he is gonna go scrapping to get the gas money. Since it was for my car I figured I'd tag along, well he stops me and I come to my parents. While at my parents I log into my college e-mail and college account and find out that I am awarded $8,325 to get back into College. Then I made a decision that I am leaving Chris because I am feeling distant. So I am back to were I can see my future and this is on GOOD CHANGE that has me happier than ever.

So as of today I am back to being a college student working on bettering myself and I couldn't be any more happier. Yes I wish I could have been able to keep Chris in my dreams but I think I'll find the right guy out there while getting my dream reached. So with this change in my life, more GOOD CHANGES are coming not only to me in life but to my dreams, this site, and my goals.

I am happy I got to share this with you and I'm glad that you listened!

BlackBerry Curve 8530

BlackBerry Curve 8530
Motorola
For price, see your local cellular provider
*****
I have now switched to the newest Curve in the family of BlackBerry's. I have been so happy with this BlackBerry that I have no desire to steer away from the BlackBerry family. If you've read my last review on the BlackBerry Curve 8330 then your really going to enjoy this review!! Not only did my last Curve give me a great amount of space but due to the circumstances of having to downgrade back to my Pearl for a couple of days due to the fact I was trying to be a kid again I never got the chance to fully learn the Curve. But since buying the BlackBerry Curve 2 and using it on a daily basis I am enjoying all the functions and space that I have on it!

The only thing that I do miss is having a flash on my camera but due to going to a concert that partook outside I did get to try out out it looked in the nighttime on camera mode and I have to say that if you go to a concert you may want to take a digital camera. I am disappointed that RIM didn't make this model with a built-in flash on the camera but I am learning on how to deal with it. Not only does this phone have a camera but it also has a video camera, voice note recorder, and a music player! If you have purchased on of these phones, I do have to warn you that you may need to get a memory card as most of your music, pictures, and videos are stored on there as well as ringtones if you purchase any!

When switching to the BlackBerry software version 4.7 to version 5.0 took me a good day because the setup was similar yet different. I was able to use more sophisticated folders to store applications. The BlackBerry messenger and the SMS text as well as MMS systems were the ones that I had to relearn as it was all in chat mode and to choose recipients were setup differently. But with learning the software I would have to say that RIM definitely did a wonderful job on the upgrade!

Many applications that I use on my BlackBerry are: Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, WeatherBug, Loopt, foursquare, Craigslist, eBay, Pandora, as well many of the apps included in the BlackBerry package. I would have to say that if you are looking to upgrade from a smaller BlackBerry, like the Pearl, the Curve is the way to go!

~Mandi Lynn~

BlackBerry Curve 8330

BlackBerry Curve 8330
Motorola
For price, check your local cellular provider
*****
The BlackBerry Curve 8330 is the latest BlackBerry I've invested in and I have to say that it is the best one I've made so far! Memory has not been an issue for me at all and I have even picked up more applications on the Curve then I had on a Pearl! I have also learned more tricks to having and using many of the features on the phone and it has been great sharing these many tricks with others in the BlackBerry world!

Many features I use daily on my BlackBerry include: Facebook, Twitter, BlackBerry App World, BlackBerry Maps, MapQuest (yes I use MapQuest while having BlackBerry maps because MapQuest has yet to fail me and I've gotten lost at least once while using BlackBerry Maps), Calendar, MemoPad, WordPress, WeatherBug, MSN Messenger, Yahoo! Messenger, as well as using BlackBerry Messenger! Some specs that I am thankful for being on my BlackBerry are: video camera (great for catching some hilarious party moments as well as lifes simple achievements).

*As a farewell message* I would say that with me majoring in the field that I am getting back into college for, the BlackBerry was a great investment for me! However, I do believe that a regular Joe Smoe who is looking for a phone to do everything that they need, this would be a perfect phone to jump right into!
~Mandi Lynn~

Why I Went Back

So as I posted in my earlier blog, Blogging Mobile, I said I went back to the boyfriend who cheated on me and I know most of my readers were all saying that I shouldn't because I deserve better! But I have to agree to a certain degree that once a cheater, always a cheater...but with Chris I don't have to worry because he cares for me and my family! But I do realize that I have left out some details! So I'll give more details!

Chris and I have known each other for a good 5 years but didn't start getting close with each other for the last 2 years! We started talking when I dated Scott, my second ex-fiance who treated me like shit, but Scott forbidded me to hang out with him alone! Well when things ended with Scott and I, I started talking to Chris a lot! Little did I know that we both had eyes on each other for quite a while!

A month or two came along and we started texting each other constantly for two days straight and talking on the phone! Next thing led to another and we started dating! Two days after we started dating I moved into his apartment with him! Things kept getting better! About a month after we started dating I got a new job, then that's when things started getting crappy! I got sick really bad with bronchitis, then my car broke down.

Chris didn't start cheating on me until a week before we split up! What's worse is I didn't find out that he cheated on me until about a week or two after the split! What was weird when he told me about him being with the girl I was completely shocked because the girl told me she viewed him as a brother!

Things were really different during the split and I really didn't like it because I knew Chris and the Chris I saw while dating him was much sweeter then the Chris I saw! What was even weird about the whole ordeal was that the girl, her baby daddy worked with me and we were starting to get freakishly close! But we never dated!!!! There were disputes that were in court between the two and Chris and I were stuck in it as well! I learned a lot and I believe Chris did too! That's why I think that are relationship this time around is a lot different this time then the last!

It was back in November of 2009 when Chris and I started talking again! In fact, it was on Thanksgiving when we started talking again! Which is when things started making progress! We started dating in May of 2009 and around late June I realized that I had found the one I love! So that's why it was so easy to forgive him! I did let him know that I could never forget!

He has proven a lot to me that he has at least felt guilty for how things were! But he knows that I seen and heard the shit he went through and I know that would always be in the back of his mind but he enjoys taking care of me because he isn't looking to change me! I see that in his eyes whenever our eyes meet! So that's how I know that he is the one for me!

I welcome all feedback and will answer any and all questions that ya'll have! However, if I deem it to unacceptable or not comfortable for my answer, please respect my privacy! I may even contact you to answer on a private conversation! Thanks for taking time out of your day to read my post!
~Mandi Lynn~

Blogging Mobile

So I now have a better BlackBerry were I can have more than 5 apps. It is also one were I can have the WordPress application on it, so it means more time for blogging! Which I totally miss since I really don"t use my laptop much! I have been extremely busy mending my relationship with the ex-boyfriend who cheated on me! I know, I know; you are probably all wondering why I went back! Well, it's all complicated...to the point that it may end up needing its own post!

Well, I just was wanting to let ya'll know that alive and well! Miss ya all and cannot wait to hear your comments!
~Mandi Lynn~