Quick Update

Well I have been busy for the last 5 days with working the morning shift that when I have come home I've just been physically and mentally tired. I got my job back at Meijer which I am very thankful that my boss asked me to come back. But it changed were I work in the produce department. My team leader has taken me out of the guest convenience and moved me to were I am setting the floor or were I help maintain it. I am starting to get work-outs everyday that I am working. Which is helping me lose weight more!!

Anyway, I am working on coming up with a few ideas to let everyone know when I make new ringtones!! I almost also going to work on it to were everyone can just upload them from this site since they are ones that I make granted they are not my music. I will, however, be making it to were I do include the song name and artist in the updates. As it unfolds I will let you all know!!

Missing You Is Hard

To: My Dearest
From: Your Sweetheart
Date: 2/18/09 22:15

I'm standing here at work thinking how nice it would be to be standing in your arms but at the moment given I am not. I've not heard from you in a couple of weeks to a month and that is also making me realize how real this time apart from you is killing me. I really long for you to also be here telling me that it is okay and that everything'll get better, but your not. I also lay awake at night wondering if you are thinking the same thing. Its been hard being away from you sice I have figured out how I feel about you.

My feelings for you have changed a lot since our eyes met each other a few odd years back. It's almost like I figured we'd just be acquaintances instead of lovers, but in fact my feelings did a 360. I never thought it'd be so hard describing our parting but it's hard not seeing you. Who would have thought taht we'd be good for each other.

I never thought that someone would take my breathe away to where I have to makes ure my heart is still pumping, but thats what it does everytime we talk on the phone, text, instant message, or e-mail. I would have thought that this wouldn't all be like this after all I have been through but it's not. I never thought that this would like me, that I'd fall hard for someone but maybe your the lucky one.

I don't like the seperation but I guess I've grown use to waiting and wondering. It's hard for me to wonder whether your feelings have changed since the last we talked. Once I see [most of the time] that it hasn't it makes the smiling, dancing like a little school girl dance, the adrenaline, and making sure I'm breathing come back to me. Theres times I wish at a certain moment that you'd know I need that text, phone call, instant message, or even e-mail to cheer me up. But nothing comes. Its hard and I guess I have to deal. I am strong and I'll make it til I hear your voice next.

I love you and miss you much,
Your sweetheart

OMG, I am so tired anymore!

So most of my friends know that I am working full-time and going to college part-time, they understand I am busy. Many if ask, when do you get any time to yourself? Sometimes I ask myself whether I can have time to just rest. Well today I realized that as I get older, I am going to want to do this and do that that all I have time to do is be BUSY.

Last night I had class. Math 090 which I had a test in and got an 85% on it. I did not even study for it. Most of the people I work with tell me, Man, your doing good for not studying. And yes I know that. Maybe I got this special thing that if I don't study, then I don't worry about whether I'll forget the thing that I need to remember for the test.

I also was scheduled for English 151 but I didn't go because I WANTED to go home and get to bed early, but I didn't get to because I was just 5 minutes from getting to were I live when I get to my phone. I was going to call one of my friends, but found out I had a voicemail. It was my mom asking me to go to my Uncle's house to pick up my grandma. So I decided I would turn around to go back to Monroe to get my grandma. I was hoping to leave shortly after my grandma got there but I decided to at least visit til about 8:20. I didn't leave til close to 9 o'clock.

When I got back into Dundee grandma wanted to go to Kroger so I was in Kroger til about 9:30 and I didn't get home til 10 so I wish I sorta went to English but not really.

So I am majorily tired and I think I am going to bed now. Sorry this is probably all confusing, as the title is OMG I am so tired anymore.