TWO DAYS!!!! & A Few Announcements

Well, its getting closer and closer to the world premier of Twilight: The Movie and I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to see it. The night that it comes out in the United States is November 21, 2008 and I'm hoping to see it when its in theaters so that I don't have a longer wait to see it. But other than being excited for the movie to come out I am also excited to tell ya'll that I just finished reading Breaking Dawn a couple nights ago. I know that I had posted it as a status that I was done but I'm just so excited that I had to do a short review on it at http://mandidavis.com/reviews.html and I hope that ya'll check it out. Other than that I have a couple announcements.

ANNOUNCEMENT ONE:
MandiDavis.com has just launched Creative Explosions business website. That's right I am hosting my own business site. I do hope that you check it out.

ANNOUNCEMENT TWO:
With recently reading the Twilight Saga (Twilight, Book One; New Moon, Book Two; Eclipse, Book Three; and Breaking Dawn, Book Four) it has opened a new reading them into my reading interests. I am now into reading and I have found at least two new series of Vampire novels. One is The Vampire Diaries written by L.J. Smith (The Awakening, Vol I; The Struggle, Vol II; The Fury, Vol III; and Dark Reunion, Vol IV) as well as House of Night Series written by P.C Cast & Kristin Cast (Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, Untamed, Hunted). I hope that if you have taken an interest in the Twilight Saga that you at least get interested into the listed books.

ANNOUNCEMENT THREE:
Taylor Swift's new ablum Fearless is a great album. It was realeased about a week ago and so far I love the album. So far all I know is that the number one single from it is "Love Story" and I absolutely love that song that I have it as my ringtone. If you like Taylor Swift and loved/liked her first album (self-titled Taylor Swift) you'll love Fearless.

Well that's all for now.
~*Mandi Lynn*~

Sorry I've Been Gone So Long

Well it looks like it has been a while since I've written in here. The last 4-6 months have been busy and eventful and will be blogged about here soon! Just wanted to let you all know that I am doing fine giving the circumstances and events that have been taking affect. I really don't want to ruin much so I am just going to leave you all in suspense for a few days. But I do want to let you know that their could also be HUGE changes coming up within the next 2 months or so!! Check back regularly because I'll be trying to blog more often now. Don't forget you can check me out on Twitter!!

Confused, Need Advice

Ok, so most of you know that I have been going through a rough time. Zac and I have been on a space thingy in which he told me later that night when I called him after getting home whether we were still boyfriend/girlfriend and that we were just spending time to figure things out. He said yes and so I left it at that. Well I found out that he has himself listen as single and looking for a good time on his MySpace profile. It doesn't really bug me but it hurts because I love him still and I know him and I still have a chance.

The first night I figured would be the hardest night because I was not going to be in the same room or bed with him that I was for the last 22 days. But the other day I e-mailed him and told him how I felt because it was on my chest and really bugging me. So that night I went to bed but guess what, I cried myself to sleep. Of all nights to cry myself to sleep it is the night that I get everything off my chest especially e-mailing the stuff to Zac.

But now there is another person coming into the picture. Chris. He is a friend and I am not going to lie that him and I were getting close about four to five months before Zac and I started dating. Well about two weeks before things got out of hand with Zac and I, Chris e-mailed me and it was a friendly e-mail. (Yes Zac, if you read this I think I told you that Chris e-mailed me and I am sorry if I did not let you read it but I was appalled by it myself.)

Now I am starting to hang out with Chris again. The other day I went to hang out with Chris. We watched a movie (The Butterfly Effect) and during the movie he tickled me (which reminded me of Zac because Zac loved tickling me). Well after the movie I just could not help it. I started crying on Chris and the whole time I was crying I was telling Chris all that went on and more or less it was all talk about Zac.

Chris was nice and hugged me and told me that everything was going to get better and maybe this happened to let another thing happen. See Chris is very opinionated and I love it, but Zac was the same way. The whole time I was with Chris he did things that Zac did. Of course Chris is different and so is Zac. Then after I cried Chris made me smile. Zac did the same thing if I ever cried on him.

Chris reminds me of Zac and it really hurts to see him because I feel that if I get into a relationship with him all I am going to do is cry because I am thinking of Zac. Appartantly I am not over Zac and I know that Chris probably sees that. Right now I am really confused whether to wait for Zac or to just let my heart heal and see what happens with Chris.

Please what do I do? I need advice!

I love Zac and miss him truly

Well, I moved back home yesterday because things didn't go to well.  Zac and I are not getting married and I have a feeling that Zac and I are done with the relationship.  We are going to try and remain great friends though and I hope we do that if the relationship does not work.  I wrote a note to him and I would like for you all to be able to see.  It shows how much I love him.  Well I'll let you read it to determine stuff yourself.

Zac,
I have given so much up for you so that I could move to Toledo with you.  When I was packing my things earlier you told me that you didn't want me to come.  Well then why didn't we sit down and talk just you and me or even us with Tony about how you wanted to get this situation worked out to were none of this would have happened.

Please tell me that you know how much I gave up for you and please tell me that you still love me.  On my way home I cried and I am still crying to this moment that I am afriad that I have no more tears left because I have been crying all day.  You haven't hurt me physically but you have mentally but more emotionally.

The day that you and I started seeing each other you told me you would never leave me and I told you that I would never leave you.  I feel that I have failed you completely because I had to pack my stuff today and leave you.

Even though I might now have divorced parents or one who is an alcoholic and hurt you.  My mom did hurt me in a way that I can never get over.  Her and I constantly fought and still to this day may constantly fight.  But now that I feel I have lost you and I hope that we can find each other.

Please, just help me try to not be a bitch and if we do get back to living together because I need you right now.  I need to get better and I want you to be there every step of the way that I need the help.
Well, I hope that you'll come and get you medicine when your in town the 28th and 29th so that you can get back on it and once you get on it maybe I'll talk my parents into getting me on some medicine or I'll try to get back on my blogging or talk to you about my problems more once we get thing figured out.

I know that we can make it and I am also praying that we make it through.  I love you and will take a bullet for you.  That's how bad I love you.  This morning I wanted to talk to you and tell you what was bugging me.  The thing that was bugging me was I knew that we both needed sleep and once we started laying down, you went with Tony and Drew and I figured you'd want to stay and go to sleep.

Well since you guys took my car, I was worried it'd brake down on you so I stayed up until you guys got home so that I knew that I would not be all tired when you guys called in such.  Plus I was worried.
I love you so much that if this seperation is what will help the relationship then so be it.  Maybe it'll give us time to figure out that we still love each other because I was hoping that this relationship would never come to this.

So just please don't forget about me, if you want you can e-mail me and we can try to work things out.  I am sure we can.  I won't give up on us because if I give up then that means I am a quitter and I can't quit that easy.  I am fighting for us.

I love you Zac! Don't forget that.

Update for you all!

Hello Friends,
A lot has gone on since I last updated you so I will try and think of all what has happened and give you all one big update for now.

I went back to school for another semester in which the Winter 2008 semester start January 15 for me in which I was enrolled in two classes in which one was four credit hours and the other one was three credit hours.  Math 150 (4 Credit Hours{CH}) was getting hard for me so I withdrew from that class so that it would not ruin my GPA which currently at the moment is a 3.0 and it is better than my 2.6 GPA for High School.  English 152 (3 CH) is the class that I am still in until May 1st and that is going great.  I have only written 4 papers for it in which 3 I am turning in for my Final Portfolio.  In the English classes that I have taken and only have to take I have only had Final Portfolios and no exams.  So I am currently done with any and all papers until my next semester; which I hope is Fall 2008.

I hope that I have said this already but I am not quite sure I have said this already but Zac, my fiance, asked me to marry him about five to seven days after Christmas.  I did say yes and the date is set for sometime in July of 2010.  We are hoping that I am done with school then, if not I believe that I should be halfway done with my degree.

Also I moved out of my parents on April 1st.  Zac and I went to her on that day after I got out of school to explain to her how the apartment situation was going.  Zac and I were trying to talk to her like civilized adults.  Well, she did not want to have a civilized conversation and just went off on Zac.  I did not take that well and I started to cry.  I snapped back at her when she started to tell Zac she is not moving out and she is not quitting her $10/hr job just so she can live with you.  And she dropped out of her math class so she could spend more time with you.  She was just blaming so much on Zac that I blew up on her and told me to watch me walk the fuck out of the door.  That is exactly what I did was walk out the door.  I was devistated for hours.

But anywho, we are now in the apartment in Toledo Ohio and I am absolutely loving it here.  I am starting to get comfortable to go out and adventure on my own but before I get myself lost I at least want one of the guys to be with me when I do try and find my way around Toledo.  Toledo is such a big city that a girl like me just cannot adventure out on her own, especially at night.

Well, I think that I have updated for you guys well enough.  Actually I did miss something, I lost 40 pounds since I quit my job at McDonald's in July 2007.  I am even on my way of losing more since I have stopped eating three big meals a day and I only eat one big meal a day and snack lightly during the time between my last big meal and my next big meal.  Some days I am lucky to get a real nice snack in between meals.

Well, I guess that is it for now.
Later,
Mandabear